Oh, how it bugs me to write this post!
Remember all the Christmas decorations we were going to make? The ones listed in the previous post?
The ones I thought sounded like a lot, but no big deal?
Yeah…we’ve had our tree for almost two weeks and it is still not decorated. Other than lights.
And two orange slice garlands that I’ve managed to finish. I have more oranges just waiting to go up. I have a cranberry garland (mostly strung by Punkin) that I almost destroyed in my attempt to put it on the tree by myself. Doh!!
Y’all…the worst part of all of this is that I should have known better.
I should have known how hard it would be to do all this when my stepdaughter is only here half the time. The time she has been here since we bought the tree has been primarily school nights and we seem to run out of time so quickly!
I should have known that having two toddlers would make working on these difficult. Not because they are breaking things (Little Man actually helped Punkin string the cranberries by pushing them down the floss after Punkin put them on), but because they inevitably need my complete, focused attention every time I try to work on a project. (This could partially explain why my blog has hardly seen me this year.)
I should have known better than to add so many projects to my list after just finishing a LOT of projects for my youngest brother’s wedding. After finally reaching a point where I could just breathe for a bit without feeling pressured to do anything.
What was I thinking?!
I had just successfully told someone no on a project with which I really, really, REALLY wanted to be involved. Then I turned around and created an unrealistic project list for me and my family. The intentions were good – family time (yes!) and creative time (yes!) and teaching time (yes! how many kids would think to make their own ornaments when you can buy everything at stores these days?) – but the expectations I put on myself for leading my family through this after everything that’s gone on this year were just insane.
I must be insane, friends.
So, consider this me opening my hands and accepting that we may be using ornaments we already have to finish the tree this year. The tree will not be the beautiful display of handmade decorations I had envisioned.
It’s all okay. Or it will be okay. Once I fully let go and move on.
At the end of the day, the purpose of Christmas is to celebrate the birth of our Savior and we definitely don’t need a tree full of handmade decorations to accomplish that purpose.