Wreck Me, Jesus

There is so much hate in the world these days. So much hate and other ugliness that screams “this world is broken!”

I’m sick and tired of the political posts on my Facebook feed. The name calling and the pointing fingers and the insults are past wearisome and just flat out annoying.

I’m sick and tired of everyone trying to force feed their beliefs down each other’s throats as if their beliefs are the only acceptable ones. Heaven forbid, we each have our own thoughts and ideas, right? Ugh.

It wasn’t meant to be like this.

It wasn’t.

When God created the world, it was supposed to be the Garden of Eden forever. Constant fellowship with Him. Peace and love and joy every moment.

Then the first man and woman screwed it up. Yes, both of them did it. You can throw it in my face that Eve was the first to make a mistake, but you sure as hell can’t tell me that Adam didn’t make one soon after. Who cares which gender did it first? It happened.

But God…now there’s a phrase you need to burn in your heart, mind and soul.

But God in His infinite love and mercy and grace created a way for us to commune with Him again. A way for us to live forever again. By sending His one and only Son into the world to die in our place, He redeemed us.

I’m tearing up as I write this because I’ve been angry with God. I’ve been angry about my congenital hypothyroidism that reeks havoc on me mentally, physically and emotionally day in and day out. I’ve been angry for the way certain things are going in my life since marrying Mr. Beck.

I’m tearing up because I know being angry with God is pointless and yet I’ve been letting it take over.

Tonight at church, one of the songs we sang during worship just completely wrecked me. It’s called “Jesus is Better” and was written by Aaron Ivey and Brett Land (Austin Stone Music). It reminded me to crown Jesus Lord over every aspect of my life. It reminded me to put my hope in Him alone. Both of these are things that I simply haven’t been doing. It led me to pray:

“Jesus, wreck my heart so that nothing and no one is more important in my life than You.”

When He is more important to us than anything or anyone in our lives, our hearts change and become more Christ-like. This means that we love others as He loves us. We serve others as Christ serves us. We become family with Him and each other.

Can you imagine how much better this world would be if we loved each other?

I’m not claiming to have this figured out in my life. The Lord knows that I am far from loving and serving people well.

I want that to change.

So, I pray that Jesus would wreck my heart and move in.

Here are the lyrics to the song I mentioned above:

Jesus Is Better
written by Aaron Ivey and Brett Land
(c) 2013 Austin Stone Music (ASCAP).

There is no other so sure and steady, my hope is held in your hand
When castles crumble and breath is fleeting, upon this rock I will stand
Upon this rock I will stand

Glory, glory, we have no other king
But Jesus Lord of all
Raise the anthem, our loudest praises ring
We crown Him Lord of all

Your kindly rule has shattered and broken the curse of sin’s tyranny
My life is hidden ‘neath Heaven’s shadow, Your crimson flood covers me
Your crimson flood covers me

Glory, glory, we have no other king
But Jesus Lord of all
Raise the anthem, our loudest praises ring
We crown Him Lord of all

In all my sorrows, Jesus is better

Make my heart believe.

In all my victories, Jesus is better

Make my heart believe.

Than any comfort, Jesus is better.

Make my heart believe.

More than all riches, Jesus is better.

Make my heart believe.

Our souls declaring, Jesus is better.

Make my heart believe.

Our song eternal, Jesus is better.

Make my heart believe.

Glory, glory, we have no other king
But Jesus Lord of all

Glory, glory, we have no other king
But Jesus Lord of all
Raise the anthem, our loudest praises ring
We crown Him Lord of all

Glory, glory, we have no other king
But Jesus Lord of all
Raise the anthem, our loudest praises ring
We crown Him Lord of all

 

I want Jesus to be Lord over everything in my life. My hypothyroidism. My circumstances. My life. Period.

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